Speechless.

难道我的坚持是错的？

Coast is still nt clear

Why doesn't he knows hw I feel by now? Isn't it so much obvious? Is it tt he just don't get it or he doesn't feel anything tts y he pretends to not knw?  Can't he feels tt I feel sth for him? 

*upset* 

Upset, still..

I'm still pretty upset.. Spoken to my boss, he said as girls we shld wait for the right one who will live us for who we are instead of going after a man. Who don't know? But when's mine going to come? Or will it ever come? Idk. I just feel really envy of those girls who can found those who are mutually attracted and love them whole heartly and get married. I want them as well, but y can't I find one till now? Everybody is settling down, I'm left behind.. 

I felt so lonely at times, but I couldn't find somebody to tell to. I'm anxious of being alone.. Ppl says the more you're afraid, e more it will happen. Is it true? So this is happening to me? 

My friends once saw I have a huge mole on my breast. She told me tt ppl with it, their husband will dote on them a lot. But, I can't even find a boyfriend, how am I supposed to get a husband who will dote on me?