2014 Cny

Was supposed to be a happy Cny (by right). But I'm upset and feeling lonely. Have been having a crush on this guy for some time but he just don't seem to notice me or rather, e feeling wasn't mutual. 

Frankly speaking, I'm really envious and anxious at e same time. Seems like all my cousins are attached, and all those friend around me are getting married (engaged). I'm e only one left. This sense of loneliness has been lingering.. I wonder how much longer shld I wait? Or am I destined to be alone for e rest of my life? 

难道，我就不会再遇到我的缘分？此时此刻我很难过，好绝望。